Thursday, January 26, 2017

Visiting the Audiologist

About eight years ago I realized that if I wanted to progress with my photography I would have to learn to photograph people. So as not to miss a good shot I began to take my camera, loaded with black and white film, with me nearly all the time.

An opportunity  presented itself when I had an appointment at the audiology clinic in May 2010 to check my hearing. I asked the personnel of the clinic, all African-American women, if I could take their pictures; they were delighted. There was the receptionist, the manager, a technician and three audiologists. I took my time and they didn’t mind if I had to take them in several poses. I had prints made and gave one to each subject.

My next appointment at the audiology clinic took place three days ago when I noticed that my hearing had worsened in the six years since my last visit. I was in the waiting room talking with Lucy, when from a side room I heard my name called. It was the technician from six years ago! She ran over to me, kissed me and hugged me. She proudly told me she was no longer a “techie” but was a coordinator, whatever that was. Then she jumped up and ran back to her office. She returned, waving the print of our photo-graphic encounter of SIX years earlier. I examined the print; I could have done better but I don’t think I could have made the subject any happier.

You can see the photo in our Flickr collection here:

Sunday, October 23, 2016

Doctors Day 2016 at Methodist Hospital

The Jackson family had a great time at Doctors' Day 2016 at Methodist Hospital.  A professional photographer was on hand to capture the events and you can see his pics here:

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Our telephone system in 1941

We recently found my father's (Peepa's) draft card from the Old Man's Draft in 1942 (  Under telephone he wrote "Yes."  This reminded me of how our telephone system worked.

1941 was Depression time. We lived one block away from the Chamovitz family and in order to save money we subscribed to the daily Yiddish paper, Forward, for one month and when Dad was finish reading it, I took it up the hill for Uncle Morris to read. During that month the Chamovitzs had the telephone. If there was a message for Dad, a Chamovitz boy would run down the hill to give Dad the message.

The next month we got the phone and the Chamovitzs got the Forward and one of the boys would deliver it to Dad when Uncle Morris was finished with it. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Friday, September 26, 2014

Life of Bry - My journal about my grandson

Bryan (Bry) is a grandson of Daniel Jackson. When Bry was young he moved to Pittsburgh, PA. When Jaya Cotic sensed Dan's sorrow she bought him a diary and a pencil and told him to WRITE STORIES about himself and Bry. This is the result.

The Journal

Shortly before your third birthday, your mom called me and without coming right out about it, let me know that she was leaving Houston to return to Pittsburgh, her home. She knew you loved me and I loved you and that we would like to have as much time together as possible before you, she, and your pets made the move.
I was terrible unhappy. Why? Because I was afraid you'd forget me. I'd never forget you, but would you remember me? What about your trips to the zoo? What about our breakfast with your Dad at Shipley's? Would you remember that I changed your diapers, dressed you, bathed you, took your pictures, put you down for naps, always held you as close as I could?
And now you were going 1500 miles away. Yes, I could call you on the phone. I could send you toys, more stuffed animals. But would you remember?
To help me stop worrying, I asked my friend, Dr. Kraft. You know he's a child psychiatrist and has lots of information. He told me right off, "Bryan will never forget you." But that didn't help. There were tears in my eyes; he offered me a Kleenex.
Then he suggested I buy a tree, a small one and call it Bryan's Tree. So, Gram and I went to Teas  Nursery and picked out a small tree, about as tall as you. Actually, it wasn't a tree; it was a hawthorn bush that had been trimmed and shaped into a tree.
I asked Jesse, our yardman, to dig a hole in the front yard so we could put your tree into the ground. After that was done, I went to your house on Havana and brought you back so you could be part of the planting. You were wearing a little white suit and, of course, a baseball cap.
When the tree was in the ground and dirt packed around its roots, I leaned a sign against it that said, "BRYAN'S TREE 8-29-88."
Next came the picture taking. Remember, you were just two years old and in "the terrible twos." It took a lot of coaxing for me to get you to stand next to your tree. I took two quick snaps, then you walked away, sat down on the front porch, and refused to come back. I had to be satisfied with one more shot of you, on the porch, away from your tree.
So you left for Pittsburgh with your mom and Chauncey and other pets. Your tree did well, pretty pink flowers, leaves changing to red and yellow at different times of the year.
Then, three years ago, when we landscaped the back yard, Gram had your tree moved to the back yard because she had never liked it up front. But the spot where it was transplanted didn't hold too well and it began to lean over.
The next move, to a corner of the yard, was a bad one. I don't know what happened but soon all but a few leaves turned brown and fell off. I tried watering, fertilizer, rooting compound - even did a dance, but no good. Bryan's Tree #1 was gone.
Now we're up to Tree #2. You remember when you and I went to Teas? You wanted a fruit tree so we went to that section of the nursery and you picked out a dwarf apple tree, Anne.
I wrote you that the last invaders were mites and I've sprayed Anne twice with Kelthane. She's enjoying warm, rainy weather and showing light green leaves. Maybe no apples this year but I'll be next year.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

You might remember when the next story took place, though you were probably about 2 1/2 years old. It was a Sunday afternoon after visiting Ab and your Dad and Gram and me for the weekend. Your mom was supposed to pick you up at about 4 o'clock, but she was running late.
The later it got, the more tense Gram got because she didn't want to see or talk to your mom (they weren't exactly friends). So Gram wouldn't fret, I took you into the garden room so she wouldn't see or hear us. By now, I was pretty tense myself.
I asked you to help me with the plants and you wanted to water them. I gave you the hose. I hoped your mom would hurry to take you home so we could relax. Then I heard a crash. Your watering hose had bumped a pot and it had fallen to the floor.
That did it! I began to scold you, to blame you for not being careful.
Your reaction took me by surprise; it was so simple, so deep, so full of meaning. You bowed your head and softly began to cry.
I felt foolish. I had hurt the person I loved so much that I was unable to say a word. Something had punched me in the pit of my stomach and I couldn't talk or breathe or move. I was a damn fool to take my tenseness out on such a beautiful person as you. I held you in my arms until we both felt better.
Several weeks later, at Steve's suggestion, I called you (you were in Pittsburgh) and apologized for yelling at you. Do you remember? Even as I write this, I relive the pain and embarrassment at my stupid reaction to such a minor mistake.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

Do you ever wonder how you learned to act in certain ways? How to position your head when you are listening to a song? Where to put your feet when you want to bunt? How to hold a sword when you play at dueling? Well, let me tell you a story about us and what you learned.
You were small, still in diapers, no shoes or socks, visiting Gram and me. I heard the noise of a machine outside so I called to you and we went out front. There was a backhoe digging a trench on our neighbor's front lawn. A water pipe had broken and had to be replaced. I stood as close to the trench as I could so I could look into the hole while they were fixing the pipe.
But even though I positioned my feet near the hole, I could not see as well as I wanted to. So I bent forward to get a better view. Then there was a problem: What to do with my hands? Easy. I put them on my hips. As I did so, I turned to look at you; you had bent over and when you saw what I did with my hands, you put yours on your hips.
So you learned: When you bend forward to examine something you must put your hands on your hips.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

Shortly before your third birthday, you and your mom moved from Houston to Pittsburgh. I made plans and soon was on my way to visit you. From the Pittsburgh airport, I took a cab to the Holiday Inn and then took a cab to your grandma's house where you and your mom were living.
Your mom and grandma met me at the kitchen door and told me you had run to the back of the house to hide from me. I went looking for you, found you in a small room under a sewing machine. You were in play clothes, holding a ball. Your face was dirty. You looked frightened, which I couldn't understand because we had always been good friends.
In a moment, I understood.
"Grandpa," you said, "please don't take me to the airport."
"Bryan," (you weren't "Bry" yet) "I'm not taking you to the airport."
"Don't take me to Texas," you pleaded.
"No, Bryan, I won't take you to Texas. Don't worry."
Then I went back to the kitchen and asked your grandma for a moist washcloth. I wiped your dirty face until it was clean. That made you feel better. Then I picked you up and took you to the kitchen. The four of us talked for a while, had something to drink, and I gave out presents to all.
You felt better about me an so we went to the hotel, played in the pool, had dinner and put together puzzles in the room all evening.
The next day we went to the Carnegie Museum especially to see the dinosaurs.
It was a beautiful weekend for me.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

When I was about 12, I had lots of friends, boys my age who met after school to play all kinds of games. In the alley behind our house we attached a basketball hoop on a telephone pole to play basketball. It didn't matter that the alley was covered with ashes from every home's coal furnace. It made dribbling uncertain and if I fell, I'd tear my pants and scrape my knees. There are still some ashes under the skin of my left knee.
When the weather turned bad, like rain or snow, we'd play a game using broomsticks about two feet long. The first person would throw his stick, point first, into some thick mud. The next player would throw his stick into the mud hoping it would stick and at the same time knock over the first person's stick. If it stuck, but didn't knock over the first player's stick, it was then the third player's turn. If a player's stick remained upright and knocked over another player's stick, then the following took place: The person who succeeded in doing that would take both sticks out of the mud and use his stick like a bat to hit the other person's stick as far as he could. The other person would race to get his stick and hurry back to throw his stick into the mud, standing, before the hitter  could throw his stick into the mud three times. Too hard to understand? Ask me about it.
Then, mumbly-peg: Each player has to hold his jackknife - or do you know how to play it? How about "Buck Buck, How Many Fingers Up?" Or Red Rover?
We played lots of softball, some football, later tennis, and at camp, volleyball. We lived and played in hills so if a ball got loose, it would roll downhill, often far away. Someone would run like mad to get it back: more scraped knees.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

You were about 15 months old when I picked you up for a ride to the zoo. I put you in the car seat and strapped you into place. Then behind the steering wheel and we were off.
After a minute, you said, "Bess you. Bess you." I paid no attention. Then louder, "Bess you. Bess you." I looked at you. "What was 'Bess you'?" Then you practically yelled, "BESS you! BESS you!"
All of a sudden, I understood. I had sneezed and you were saying, "Bless you! Bless you!"
I laughed and thanked you. You were happy.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

You went with me to pick up some pictures of your Dad. You were five years old. As we sat in the car, you turned to me and said, "Grandpa, how much do you love me?"
I pointed to the inside of the car. "I love you enough to fill this car."
You said, "I love you as much as all these cars." There were two on each side.
I pointed to a telephone pole and then another. "I love you as much as between those two telephone poles."
You answered, "I love you as much as big as Houston."
I thought a moment. "I love you as big as the whole United States."
You said, "I love you as much as the whole world."
Then I had you. "I love you as much as all the planets and stars in the universe."
You were stumped. You thought for a moment, then brightened. Sitting straight up in your end of the car seat, you struggled for words, then said, "Grandpa, I love you so much I could scream!"

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

When you were living in Houston, your dad would pick you up on Wednesday afternoons to take you to have dinner with him and Ab on Mischire Drive. Gram and I would visit you after we ate supper. When I knocked on your door, in a moment I could hear you call out to your dad, "Hurry up! Open the door! It's Grandpa!"

~*~   ~*~   ~*~
When you were about 18 months old I bought you a stuffed bear. It was huge, twice as big as you. You loved it.
Once when I came over on a Sunday morning to take you the zoo, you ran to the door to greet me. You were sucking on the nipple of a bottle of milk. You were so happy to see me that you ran around looking for something to give me. You spied the bear and ran to drag it to me. But you needed both hands, so what were you going to do with the bottle? In a jiffy you decided what to do: You put the nipple in your mouth, leaving the bottle hanging down. Now both hands were free to drag the bear over to me!

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

You were playing on our front lawn. With a plastic bat, you were hitting a ball over the grass, missing more than hitting. Grandma was watching you and reminded you, "Don't go off the sidewalk."
You continued swinging and mostly missing, saying, "Don't worry, Grandma, I'll stay on the walkside."

~*~   ~*~   ~*~
The first time I held you in m arms was when you were one day old. You weren't very much, and all I could see was your round face; the rest of you was covered with blankets and a diaper. I'm not sure, but I think there was a little cap on your head. You slept soundly. I rubbed my cheek on yours. It was so soft I almost couldn't feel it.
The next time I saw you was when we visited you, your mom, and your Grandma Arlene in the apartment on Bissonet. You were about a week old, still asleep, quiet. You woke up to nurse. I'm sure I held you thought I don't remember.
Soon you moved to a house on Havana and I began to become closer to you. I woke you from your sleep on Saturday mornings. I'd put a clean diaper on you, dress you while you emptied a bottle, then hold you while your mom gave you your vitamins. Then into the car seat of my car and we were off to the zoo.
At the zoo, I'd put you in a stroller and we'd walk around. Of course, you fell asleep almost right away, but I had such a good time watching you while we walked past the bird cages, animal enclosures, and waterfalls. I know you didn't know where you were or what was going on but I told myself you were getting used to the smells and noises and cries of the zoo and would find them a comfortable place in your life.
If you'd wake up it would be because you were wet, so I'd take off the wet diaper, powder you and put on a clean, dry one. And if you were hungry, I'd put a bottle of milk in your mouth. You were happy. So was I.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

Where did you get your fascination with wheels? Or anything mechanical with wheels?
At your first birthday you got lots of presents, but the only thing you played with was a Tonka truck. You got down on your hands and knees with your head on the floor, your eyes on the wheels as you pushed the truck back and forth, back and forth.
And one evening, after you finished supper, I picked you up out of your high chair and carried you around the block so the rest of the family could finish eating.
As we turned a corner, we came upon a large tractor parked at the curb for the night. As soon as you saw the huge machine you wiggled out of my arms and ran over to the big wheel. There you sat in the well of the wheel so happy. It was as though you had always wanted to do that.
Then you climbed up to the driver's seat and pretended to guide the monster down the street. You were in Heaven.
And then there's the time we went to the fat stock show. You weren't interested in cattle, hogs, rabbits, chickens, or turkeys. But machinery - you took off for the farm equipment and climbed around where you could. Wheels and metal - that was what you played with.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

Soon after you learned to walk, I began taking you to the Galleria. On hot days you wore nothing but a diaper. No shoes.
You were fascinated by the ice skaters, so I took you down to the ice. You stepped off the Astroturf onto the ice in your bare feet. You stood there for a few moments, then turned and stepped back on the turf. I knew your feet had become cold and so you wanted off the ice. I noticed that you made no sounds, didn't move your feet that had become uncomfortably cold, didn't make a face. You just move to a warmer spot.
The next few times you walked into that cold white stuff, you did the same thing.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

About the time of your 6th birthday, I visited you in Pittsburgh. Your mom warned me you were going through a bad mood. I picked you up to take you to the hotel and you were dressed in a black t-shirt, dirty jeans, and scruffy shoes. You weren't happy at supper but loosened up in the swimming pool.
After breakfast the next morning, I suggested we go do the science museum. You didn't want to but when I promised you could buy something at the gift shop, you said okay. We took the bus, but it was the wrong one so we got off, crossed the street and took another bus going the other way.
At the museum you headed for the gift shop. You selected what you wanted and I promised to buy it for you after the visit.
I suggested we visit the submarine anchored in the river nearby. Your black mood came up and you said you didn't want to because you had been there before; so I bought tickets and coaxed you on board. Wow, you had such a good time and were so excited to be on a sub. Then we bought you the junior chemistry set and headed back to the hotel.
Back in our room I laid down to rest and you played with the chemicals while we waited for your mom. I dozed off and after a while the phone rang. Your mom was on her way. We went downstairs and soon your mom came. I kissed you goodbye and went back to the room.
I went to the bathroom and found that you had a BM but didn't want to flush the toilet because you didn't want to disturb me as I napped. So thoughtful!

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

On one of our weekend walks at Galleria you were dressed only in a diaper, about 15 months old and quite curious. It was Christmas time with lots of decorations on the first level which we could see as you and I walked on Level 2.
There was a large, leafy tree in a planter on Level 1 and it and its branches extended up as high as the railing on Level 2. You were walking in front of me and before I could move, you were squeezing yourself through the bars of the railing to touch or grab the leaves. I swear my heart stopped. I sped up my leisurely pace and grabbed you. My heart started up again.
At the time I write this (you are nearly 16 years old), I can still feel the fright in my soul.
~*~   ~*~   ~*~

Again, we're at the Galleria. You're in your diaper. It's Sunday morning; stores are closed. At the store A to Z, you are fascinated by the merchandise inside. The sliding doors are separated by about four inches and you see that if you squeeze between them you'll see the store. As I ran to catch you by an arm and pull you back into the corridor, I flashed what a time I would have had if you had slipped into the store and I would have had to convince you to present an arm at the door's opening so I could get you back.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

I'm on the witness stand. I don't remember the date; all I can surmise is it's the time of cold weather in Houston because I'm wearing my dark blue cashmere jacket and I only wear that in cold weather.
The trial is about whether your mom or your dad will have custody of you or whether there will be joint custody or whatever the court will decide. There had already been lots of discussion with lawyers, but, as expected, no decision was made and the whole can of worms ended in a trial. That's why I was in the witness's chair.
I am not worried or anxious. They will want some information from me and I will tell the truth and so I'm relaxed and comfortable. I smile at the jury and some of them smile back. The rest sit stone-faced; they don't want to appear too friendly.
I'm sworn in. I promise to tell the truth.
Your mom's attorney questions me first. He asks a lot of questions about your dad's income. I know about that 'cause I'm president of Associates in Medicine who pays your dad. He asks for some estimates about your dad's future income, but I hedge on that as I can only judge by past performances and with your dad, information was limited.
Next, the questions are about time I spend with you. I have no idea where we are going but I answer that I see you Saturday early till about 1 p.m. and the same on Sunday; how I pick you up at home, dress you, drove you to the zoo and push you around in the stroller. Same on Sunday. Every Wednesday evening when your dad and Ab have you for dinner, I come with Gram, feed you and when you finish, I take you outside to examine cars, trees, and bugs.
Then your mom's lawyer asks if I think your mom is a "good" mother. I protest that I am not a judge of such things but the lawyer persists, "Not as a judge, but as a person, do you think Miss Manko is a good mother?"
I reply, "Yes, she is a good mother." Maybe the question was whether she would be a good mother in the future, but my answer would have been the same.
Then your dad's lawyer questions me. A very few questions, then, "Do you think Dr. Jackson will be a good parent?"
I sit up straight in my seat and answer in a strong voice, "Yes, he will be a splendid parent."
Your lawyer (yes, you had one) asks me a few questions and then the other lawyers ask a few more questions, particularly about my feelings for you. Suddenly, I burst out crying; I bury my face in my hands. I regain my composure, finish my testimony, and am excused.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~
Your favorite place to play was at the playground at Hermann Park. There was a merry-go-round, the kind you could turn yourself, a slide, swings, and other muscle-stretching structures. The time I'm thinking about, you were playing all by yourself and enjoying yourself immensely.
When I announced it was time to go home, you decided to play "catch me." It took a while but I did it. You playfully squirmed in my arms as I carried you toward the car. As we passed the lake, I said, "I'm gonna throw you in the lake."
That sounded just right for you and you started yelling, "Throw me in the lake! Throw me in the lake!" I held tight and managed to get you to the car and buckled into the seat belt. You still wanted me to throw you into the lake.

~*~   ~*~   ~*~

About a year after you and your mom moved to Pittsburgh, she called to tell me that she was coming back to visit friends in Lake Jackson. She was bringing you and gave me information about the visit so I could spend time with you. We talked about where she would be and she promised to phone me when she arrived.
She called me at the office and left her number at Lake Jackson where I could reach her. When I was free I called but there was no answer. I didn't know what had happened but decided to go to the address in Lake Jackson she had given me.
At Lake Jackson I found the house whose address your mom had given me. I knocked on the door and a young girl opened it. She said your mom and her mom had gone shopping. I asked, "Is Bryan here?" She said you were and invited me in.
I went into a large living room where you and three small children were standing together. My heart pounded - it was the first time in nearly a year since I had seen you.
I called your name. You looked at me but said nothing. The anxious expression on your face did not change but your hands nervously twisted each other. Again, I said, "Hello, Bryan." No response, just a worried look and the twisting hands.
Then I said, "Bryan, do you want to come hug me?" That did it. You ran across the room, jumped onto my lap. We hugged each other and I kissed you several times.
Why had you acted so anxiously? Why had you not run to me when I first entered the room? Were you afraid of me? Did you believe I had come to hurt you, to take you away when your mom was out shopping? Were you afraid that I was angry with you because you had left me and moved to Pittsburgh?
Do you have an answer?

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Zayda's Will

written by Dan Jackson
September 2013

When Dad and Uncle Morris shook hands agreeing to be partners in the shoe business in March 1927, Dad had already been an admirer of Uncle Morris for several years. He knew he was a good business man and a hard worker. He was married to Mollie who was Mother’s sister so there was a strong family connection that came along with business. That family connection had played a strong part in the matter of Zayda’s will when Zayda, father to Mother and Mollie, had died the year before.

In Dad's oral history written many years after Zayda’s death, I found his recollection of the contents of the will and the family turmoil it produced. It was Zayda's wishes that the money in his estate be divided equally among the children from his first marriage, the children from his second marriage, and his then wife, Bobie (Mother and Mollie’s mother). At the end of six months any children who wished to give their money to Bobie were free to do so. The amount of money given to each child was $300, not a great sum. Mother and Mollie had put their money in a bank account intending to give it to Bobie at the end of six months. Zayda's other children held a meeting without Mother and Mollie and decided to give their money to Bobie immediately instead of waiting six months. When Dad and Mother next visited Bobie, they were informed about the meeting, and told to sign a paper which had been drawn up agreeing that all the children give Bobie their money at once. Dad was angry for two reasons: First, the family had held a meeting without notifying him or Mother and second, giving the money to Bobie before the six months waiting period was, in a way, breaking the will, going against Zayda's wishes. As a matter of principle Dad could not condone that; Mollie and Morris agreed with him They, too, refused to sign the paper.

The deeply-felt disagreement among the Egers embittered many members and led to long-standing acrimonious feelings that, to my knowledge, were never resolved. I remember there was an attempt to bring peace to the family by organizing a club, the Eger Tree. The effort was unsuccessful; too many bad feelings remained. Wisely, the next generation ignored the matter of the will and peace prevailed once more.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

Riding with Uncle Morris

written by Dan Jackson January 2007 

At Kroger Food Stores, the Roma tomatoes are piled high in a large bin: there must be about a thousand of them. There are different sizes--from golf ball to large lemon--and their shape is never round. They started out spherical when finally ripe on the vine and then were packed for shipment, one right up against the other, so that the roundness was replaced by flat sides with soft corners, and the color, the wonderful red, became orange and shiny.

I could be led blindfolded to the display of Romas and without touching or handling or squeezing one, just stand there and inhale and, without fail, I would be transported back to about age 12 years and my time with Uncle Morris. Every time I smell tomatoes, especially the Romas where the pressure of so many piled high on each other squeezes a tiny amount of juice, I’m transported from Kroger’s to another time and place.

Each summer when I was on vacation from school, Uncle Morris would take me with him when he went on the road for that day’s business as a peddler. Before he moved to Aliquippa, he and his family lived in Carnegie. Weather permitting, he struck out each day to small towns in nearby coal mining and farming areas where he delivered previously ordered goods and took new orders. He prospered but must have felt the need for a change. That was emphasized when two of Carnegie's banks went under because of embezzlement by the banks' president. The depositors' money was returned to them, but Uncle Morris was uneasy about Carnegie's future. So in March 1927, on Mother and Dad’s 10th wedding anniversary, he visited Dad in the shoe store at 310 Franklin Avenue in Aliquippa and offered Dad a proposition: he would give Dad $5,000 cash to become a partner in the shoe business. Dad and Mother loved Uncle Morris and Aunt Mollie (Mother’s sister), and so it took only a handshake to seal the partnership.

It was easy for Dad and Mother to accept Uncle Morris's offer. For one thing, years before, Dad and Uncle Morris comsidered opening a furniture store in Aliquippa. That came about when Uncle Morris, who had done well in his business, had fears for Carnegie's future and wanted more security for his family that he believed Aliquippa, the furniture business, and a partnership with Dad would provide. Also, Uncle Morris and Aunt Mollie, of all the large Eger family, had found kindred spirits in Mother and Dad. When our family lived in Ford City and then Rosston, the Chamovitzes visited us and in turn, we visited Carnegie to share food, talk, and comfort. For me, it was a chance for me to play with the five Chamovitz boys. The warm relationship drew the families together; the consideration of a business deal followed.

High on the list of Uncle Morris's qualities, besides his business ability, his family connection, and his personal warmth that attracted Dad was his having been a yeshiva bocher (student at a school for Talmudic study) when growing up in Romania. Education ranked high in Dad's estimation: education in the Torah, the Talmud, and Jewish law had irresistable appeal. Also, in a family squabble over the will that Zayda (Mother’s father) left upon his death in October 1926, Dad and Mother were joined by Uncle Morris and Aunt Mollie in opposing the attempt by some members of the family to break the stated wishes of the will. As a matter of principle Dad could not condone that. The deeply-felt disagreement among the Egers embittered many members and led to long-standing acrimonious feelings that, to my knowledge, were never resolved.

After the partnership in the shoe business was agreed upon, Uncle Morris continued to pursue his peddling. He needed money for his family to live on and he needed money to build a home in Aliquippa. His customers owed him money so when he visited them to deliver past orders and take new ones, he would collect money owed him.

On days that I would accompany Uncle Morris, we left after lunch and got home before supper. That way Uncle Morris could be certain that he would not have to eat any meals in a restaurant that would conflict with his Orthodox beliefs. He picked me up in his big, black four-door touring sedan. It was roomy, of necessity, because of his large family (five sons), but also because it had to hold all the items he was going to pick up in Pittsburgh and deliver to his customers. I remember the seats were leather, black, of course. There were no glass windows as in modern cars. The space between doors and roof on the sides were completely open; if the weather turned bad, isinglass curtains could be fastened into place. On the trips that I made, we never had to use them.

We took the two-lane road along the Ohio River then passed through McKees Rocks, with its cobbled streets and railroad underpasses, to the Fort Pitt Bridge. We crossed the Ohio River and headed through Pittsburgh to Fifth Avenue. Most of the streets were paved with dark-gray, rounded bricks making traveling over them a rough experience, but we soon reached the smooth, paved streets of the commercial district. Now the streets were narrow and, when business was brisk and traffic heavy, cars were parked on both sides of the street. Result? A single lane thoroughfare with much blowing of horns, shouting, and slamming of car doors in disgust.

The business fronts seemed to be of a piece: The windows were dirty, and although the name of the business was usually done in gold leaf, the years of Pittsburgh’s polluted atmosphere darkened the glass and made it impossible to see what was inside. The display windows had a few items, hard to make out as if to emphasize that curious buyers would do well to come inside. The entryway was always small and paved with the ubiquitous, tiny, hexagonal-shaped, white tiles so characteristic of floors in vestibules, bathrooms, and barbershops of the time. The interiors of the stores varied only in size. The ceilings were high, about 25 feet, covered with decorative tin, every establishment the same. Lighting was poor. Shelves on both sides, sometimes to the ceiling, were filled with boxes. Few actual items were displayed. But Uncle Morris knew what he wanted and called each owner by his first name, often in Yiddish; after all, he was a landsman (a fellow-Jew from the same part of Europe). It was this encounter that brought out his warmth and gregariousness. Time spent with the businessmen was important. They supplied the goods and, when necessary, could give Uncle Morris time to pay, often 30 to 60 days. Friendship was vital for business as well as its social reasons and Uncle Morris could schmooz and deal with the best. He liked both social and business sides in places where he bought goods, and I would later see the same behavior when he delivered the orders to his customers.

Sometimes Uncle Morris left me in the car to watch over his purchases. I had not yet learned to take along something to read but was able to amuse myself by playing a form of baseball using the last number on the license plates of cars driving away from me. I chose two imaginary teams, usually the Pirates and the Giants. The Pirates were assigned even numbers: a zero was a strike; a two was a single, a four a double, a six a triple and an eight a home run. When the Pirates were at bat, an odd number meant the batter was out, three outs to a side. When the Giants were at bat, an even number meant the batter was out, but odd numbers were favorable: a one was a strike, a three a single, a five a double, a seven a triple and a nine a home run. I could put my favorite players at bat , pretend there were foul balls, stolen bases or broken bats, anything my imagination wished.

We visited a number of stores, and since Uncle Morris knew what his customers wanted, he made selections without hesitation. Employees took his purchases to the car. Soon the back of the car was filled with an assortment of items: shoes, dresses, shirts, pots, skillets, men’s suits, mops, lamps, pillows, linens, chairs and once, a roll of linoleum for a kitchen floor. It was too big to fit inside the car, so one end was lodged in the corner of the back seat, and the other end stuck rested on the back door, securely fastened by rope to prevent its rolling back and forth. If the roll was too long to safely stick out into traffic, then the front end would be tied on the front seat where it rested next to my head. It was mildly uncomfortable, and I was glad when the roll was untied and delivered and out of my way.

When Uncle Morris was sure that the items in the back of the car were anchored tightly, we started off, leaving Pittsburgh, heading for mining and farming country. I just sat back and watched the scenery change from buildings, mills, bridges, and stores to trees, hills, and open country. The roads were narrow and paved; when we turned on to a dirt road, I knew we were about to stop.

Our arrival at a house was announced by the car’s engine and by the slamming of the car’s doors. At that point the housewife, who was probably expecting “Mr. Morris,” would appear at the door of the house. The houses were always frame in construction, two-story. Most were painted a neutral gray or green. The front doors were always open; screen doors were in place in a vain attempt to keep out flying insects. Inside, the kitchen was large--the place for meals, family gatherings, and washing and ironing; also, a place to hang washed clothes in inclement weather. There were small windows on three walls with the usual white, pull-back curtains and pull-down cloth shades. In each house, the kitchen appeared the same: gas stove and oven, cabinets, a large table, and plenty of chairs. Sinks were large and cast-iron, used for washing dishes and clothes. The floors were usually covered with a flowery, patterned linoleum. And the walls reflected efforts by the housewives to decorate the room where the family spent most of its time: pictures of flowers, family, calendars with themes of animals and children. All the women we visited were busy at chores and were dressed in print cotton dresses and an apron. There were always children around, infants and toddlers; older ones were off fishing, swimming, and whatever kids in the country do when not in school.

After giving me instructions about going to the back for fruit and tomatoes, Uncle Morris headed to the house. He was a handsome guy: tall with wavy, dark hair, a straight back, and a way of walking, digging his heels into the soft dirt, that made him appear to know exactly where he was going. “Mr. Morris” was here. He was wonderfully gregarious, and by the time I was going along to keep him company, he knew everybody and everybody’s family. Not only did he deliver and take orders for furniture, clothing, and small household appliances, but he also offered advice for family and medical problems: his favorite prescription for pink eye was drops of fresh urine (from the victim) into the infected eye.

So, where does the aroma of tomatoes come in? Well, when he pulled up to the house he was visiting, he instructed me, “Go around the back, there are fruit trees. Get whatever you want; if there are tomato plants, eat the ripe ones, all you want." So, I’m transported 1500 miles and 75 years back to rides with my Uncle, back to warm, summer rides on narrow macadam roads, in an open car, and then being told, “Go to the back.” There were freshly ripened, juicy tomatoes, which I twisted off the vines and sank my teeth into. They might have been a bit dusty or, frankly, even dirty, but I’m not sure I even bothered to give them more of a swipe in deference to Mother’s concern that I might get sick if they were not washed. No matter, I ate them as I found them. Too, I helped myself to the fruit trees, mostly peaches, some apples of the crab variety, and occasionally pears. But it’s the tomatoes that hang in my memory.

Only one time do I remember a passenger, a lady from Aliquippa who needed a ride home from Pittsburgh. I did not know her, though her nephew was my age and a friend at public school and Sunday school. She sat in the front seat with me between her and Uncle Morris. She was dressed in a white, thin, cotton dress and chattered endlessly to which I paid no attention. Then she began to complain about the heat, meanwhile wiping her face with her hanky which soon became a soaking rag. She insisted we feel how wet her clothes were. She went on and on until Uncle Morris, obviously exasperated, reached across me to put his hand on her waist where it was "soaking." She asked me to do the same; I did. Soon we were back in Aliquippa and dropped off our passenger. Uncle Morris pulled us away in a rush and exploded, “She's a hoor (whore)!”

The ride home was without stops, maybe for gas, but I had the sensation of flying. The day’s work was done: now to get home as soon as possible. Uncle Morris sang melodious prayers of Shabbas and High Holidays. I now recognize he was using his wonderful, clear, sweet voice to say, “My work day is done, it’s been successful, invigorating, I’m ready to get back to my family.” In the car, his voice reverberated. Even though the car was “open,” no sound escaped: perhaps the space between the dashboard and the floorboard acted as an echo chamber; the songs stayed inside, ringing in our ears. In the car, it must have been like singing in the shower for Uncle Morris: his beautiful melodies rang over and over to his enjoyment. Time sped by. Uncle Morris was happy, bursting with the day’s success.

I made a lot of trips with Uncle Morris. Singing was his outlet. Not so with Dad: he liked to tell stories about life in Russia; I heard about his dogs, the family mill that ground grain for the peasants in the nearby villages. I heard about his breaking a prized chandelier, about his skinny-dipping in the Brushato. Just as I heard Uncle Morris’s songs over and over, so I heard Dad’s stories of his early life again and again. Now I realize both men were remembering happy times. Come to think of it, when I have breakfast with grandson Bryan, I tell him happy stories of my early years as I was growing up, about my life long ago.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

On Being a Patient

written June 2008

Bridge players say, “It’s better to be lucky than smart.” That means that in an impossible situation, where you can’t possibly make your contract, for a variety reasons everything works out. In medicine that can often be true. The diagnosis may be puzzling to you and all the consultants but in some mysterious way you stumble on the answer and you become a genius. Or the illness has a dire prognosis and then, for some unknown reason, the treatment works and the patient once again enjoys good health.

Look at me. Four years after a partial pancreatectomy for adenocarcinoma of the body of the pancreas I’m overweight, glowing with health and with no evidence of recurrence of a uniformly fatal cancer. OK so there is a less than 5% survival rate of patients with the disease, but that number is pretty close to rare. And how did the fact of my still being alive come about? That is the lucky part: it was because of an operation for another serious condition that gives me bragging rights about still being alive.

On a morning in mid-January 1996 I suddenly developed intermittent claudication. I had no other symptoms than severe cramps in both calves when I walked less than 10 feet. Inasmuch as nothing else bothered me, I did not visit a physician till the following day when I kept a previously made appointment with my orthopedist. I mentioned my new symptom to him and he examined me, finding that I had no pulses in my femoral arteries or below. He offered a Doppler study but I knew that palpation had given me enough information and told him that I planned to see my vascular surgeon the next day.

That visit confirmed that I probably had a blocked aorta and I would need an aortogram followed by laparotomy and vascular repair. I was agreeable and asked if the plan could be put off for 10 days until my sons returned from their skiing vacation. 48 hours had passed after what was obviously a serious vascular event but my surgeon calmly assured me that further delay was acceptable. I had enormous confidence in him, he probably had seen and operated on a couple of thousand patients with what I had and if he said I could wait, then it was OK to wait.

Ten days later I had an aortogram and repair of the distal aorta for obstruction by a large cholesterol plaque which had been dissected off and formed a flap over the bifurcation and obstructed blood flow. My postoperative course was marred by the nasogastric tube which eroded the edge of my left nostril. That healed promptly when the tube was removed.

I returned to practice. Four years later I had the first in the series of obstructions of the small bowel due to adhesions formed by the surgery for my dissected, obstructed aorta. At each event I was hospitalized for two to four days. Diagnostic studies always included blood count, urinalysis, and blood chemistries; also chest and abdominal X-rays and MRI of the abdomen. I always had to endure the torturing nasogastric tube.

It was during the episode of obstruction in January 2004 that the MRI of the abdomen showed a suspicious mass in the body of the pancreas; comparison with the MRI made in December 2003 confirmed that the mass was indeed new. Partial pancreatectomy was done February 2004. My oncologist recommended six months of chemotherapy. He admitted it was probably unnecessary, just one of those elements of “doing something.”

In October 2006 I had another and my last episode of small bowel obstruction. My surgeon lost no time in deciding that enough was enough; he lysed a number of adhesions and repaired a ventral hernia (a result of the surgery for the cancer).

It was one of my sons who pointed out that if I hadn’t had the dissecting aortic aneurysm, I wouldn’t have had abdominal surgery which may have saved my life at the time. If I had not had the abdominal surgery, I would not have had peritoneal adhesions. If I had not developed peritoneal adhesions, I would not had had several episodes of small bowel obstruction. If I had not had small bowel obstructions, I would not have had serial MRIs for comparison and the serial MRIs provided information to a sharp-eyed radiologist to detect an early, operable, curable cancer.

Yes, it’s better to be lucky.

My Friend Abe

written December 2006
When Abe died, I lost a good friend. Actually I lost more: a lunch companion, a patient, a consultant in my pulmonary function laboratory at The Methodist Hospital, and a voracious reader who fed me titles of novels and non-fiction that he knew would interest me. And when I visited him at his house a week before he died, I told him how much our friendship had meant to me; “Abe, I love you, and I’m so sorry about what has happened." He said nothing. I asked for a hug, held him tightly, then left.

On my way home, I thought about the disease that was taking his life, how I had studied it, had written medical articles about it, and considered myself an expert about it. Without a sound it had crept into his busy, productive life at the University of Houston and into his blissful marriage. It had given him not a sliver of a chance of successful treatment. Just death.

We had met Abe and Fran at the social gatherings of the “49-niners” - families that had moved to Houston in the late 1940’s. He was an engineer, a chemical engineer. I should have known his interests when he described how he and Fran would visit the concrete slab of the house they were building and water it thoroughly every evening to slow its hardening process and thus, give it maximum strength. He described how he intended to put a panel of signals at his bedside, connected to the security system and the lights throughout the house so that, at a glance, he could see if doors were open or lights were on.

At our initial get together we learned that Abe and Fran played lots of tennis, both together and with friends. Though they were short in stature, they did not lack for enthusiasm and agility; they were known for scurrying around the courts and being tough competitors. Fran took to the usual division of the family agenda with determination. I learned from Abe that their son and two daughters behaved well, got good grades, gave them no trouble. So Fran, who chattered endlessly, and whose face was always shiny and flushed as evidence of her chronic anxiety, accomplished her part of family chores with success. I never heard Abe complain about the children, nor did he find fault with Fran.

Abe had come to Houston to teach at the University in its chemical engineering division. His salary was not enough for his family’s needs, so he took a part-time job at Shell Oil Company. They put him to work applying his expertise dealing with the action of fluids and gases as they flowed through pipelines.

At the University, he was busy and happy. He taught undergrads, he did research, he monitored grad students, and he took his turn as chairman of the department, a task no one wanted. Rotation of the job eased the pain of an onerous function. Actually, as Abe told me of the workings of his department, I could tell he loved being in charge and did it well. As we talked at lunch dates, I learned more about him: he was a consultant to the French government about their nuclear power plants and to the state of Israel for its problems with the desalinization of sea water.

After a year, he gave up his part-time job with Shell and formed an outside consulting firm with two of his teaching associates. His success with his department was marked by the outstanding caliber of his professors, with noteworthy research, and with the numerous scientific papers that were published. Recognition came nationally when his department was given a $10 million grant over a ten-year period to add equipment, take more students, increase faculty– anything Abe and his coworkers needed and wanted. The grant was a recognition of what Abe was trying to accomplish; it boosted Abe’s pride in what he had done. It encouraged him and provided him with the funds to plan for the future of his department.

At one point, Abe took a year’s sabbatical at Oxford University. Fran and the children went with him. It was a time for Abe to relax and explore his thoughts for the future. The University was never very far from his mind. He wanted ideas to better his department for years to come. When Yvette and I were in London, we made a side-trip to spend the day with Abe and his family. We toured the campus with its ancient buildings, classrooms, and libraries, and then made a visit to Blackwell's bookstore to stare in awe at what seemed like acres of books and periodicals. Much intellectual stimulation for one day. And Abe and Fran were such warm hosts.

Soon after Abe and his family returned to Houston, a dark cloud moved in. We heard that Fran had announced that she wanted out of the marriage. She had met a publisher from Washington, D.C. and was leaving to marry him. There was shock throughout the community. What had happened? Did Abe suspect anything? Had anybody suspected anything? When Abe came to see me, he explained his reaction, “Dan, when something like this happens, you check to see if your balls are still there.”

Abe’s next move was inexplicable. In a few short months, he married Nancy, who came under our critical gaze at a social gathering at our home. We listened to her and were dismayed to see that in his haste, or out of desperation to recover his faith in himself, Abe had made a profound error. Nancy whined and complained about Abe. She did not seem to realize that the brief courtship that lead to their marriage was much too short for them to get to know each other: she gave no hint that she bore any responsibility in the miserable state they were in. We squirmed to hear her complain how she was being put upon.

A divorce ended Abe’s misery with Nancy. But Abe had not quit looking for companionship. At lunch at the River CafĂ© he confided in me about Loring: a young, bright, vivacious woman who worked in public relations at the University’s front office. Did I say “Young?” Probably about 20 years younger than Abe. She was so good for Abe. When we met her, it was clear she doted on him, could not do enough for him. They laughed a lot, held hands. He told us that when they planned a trip to France, she plastered Post-its all over their house, giving the French for door, sink, shower, hello, goodbye. Abe loved her attention, her youth, her enthusiasm. As I later told Loring, she was more than a “Ten” for Abe; she was about a thousand. Loring became active in Abe’s home to suit their needs: she fenced in the yard to hold her Doberman, planted flowers, rearranged the furniture in the sitting room, painted the pantry, hung more pictures. She was a lively, busy spirit in Abe’s life.

Then Abe came to see me about pains in his stomach. I could find nothing, gave him some medicine, and suggested a return visit. At his return he brought Loring who asked me if stress could be causing his symptoms. I told her that it was high on my list of possibilities. She then explained: The University was looking for a new president. Abe wanted the job. Maybe the tension of hoping to be chosen was getting to him. A wise lady.

The final chapter of Abe’s life came without warning and with a stamp of doom. He became short of breath; a large tumor in his chest, a mesothelioma, was the cause. Mesotheliomas are rare, very rare, and with little exception they are the result of breathing fibers of asbestos. If Abe had been an insulator or a welder or a worker in construction, we could understand his exposure to asbestos. And, besides, it takes 30-40- years after exposure before the mesothelioma appears. So where had Abe been 30-40 years ago, long ago, where he might have been exposed to particles of asbestos insulation? We poked around in Abe’s memory and so, it came out. The small room where he sat in his work for Shell had had insulated pipes overhead. The covering of the insulation was torn, and flakes of asbestos floated down continously. Thus, the small room, the air filled with visible and invisible particles for Abe to breathe.

The irony of it: I, with my interest in lung disease and knowledge of the dangers of asbestos, was watching my best friend die of the mineral which could not let me change his outcome, no matter what was tried or wished for. There was nothing for me to do. Nothing but tell Abe what was in my heart, embrace him, and say goodbye.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Connections between American and Russian Cousins

I recently recorded a video about the links between the Russian and American branches of my family. 

It's really a lead-in to the absolutely wonderful video I received on my 90th birthday from my cousin Rakhil.

More details about both videos can be seen in the comments on YouTube.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Harry Walsh

Dan Jackson
December 2007

About twenty years ago, out of the blue, I received a letter from Russia. I recognized the Cyrillic alphabet but that didn’t tell me who the sender was nor where in Russia it had been posted. After some thought I called a patient who was a professor of French at Rice University and she suggested I call Dr. Harry Walsh at the University of Houston. I did and he graciously consented to translate the letter for me. I told him there might be more letters to translate and offered to pay him for his efforts. He insisted that he would be happy to translate all letters and refused to accept compensation.

That first letter which started our relationship was from my cousin Rakhil in Penza. Soon there were letters from cousin David in Simferapol and later from Israel, from cousin Dora in Evpatoria,and from Rakhil’s son Mikhail in Riga, Latvia. Some letters were long and complaining, some were grateful for contact with family in far off America; no matter, Harry carried on.

When necessary, Harry went to extraordinary lengths to clarify a point, such as the exact location of the village, Karenets, in Russia, where the saga of the Jackson family began. Undaunted, Harry went to a remarkable source, a set of the 60 volume Russian Encyclopedia Dictionary dating from 1896 in which he found maps to help him in his search.

When I told him how impressed I was with the literary quality of some of the letters, he assured me he had not made any changes and that our family wrote in unusually good style.

A bit of lagniappe to our connection to Harry has been his lovely wife Sandra whom he affectionally calls “The Red Head.”

Then about 4 years ago a young man from Dallas applied to Harry’s department at the University to be tutored in basic Russian. He explained that his church group had adopted an orphanage in Penza, Russia, and that he needed some accelerated tutoring so that he could converse with the Russian personnel at the orphanage during visits at the Russian New Year and at summer camp. Harry gave me his name, Michael Miller, and we have become friends with him and his wife Amy. He and his church group carry money, letters, and family pictures to cousin Rakhil in Penza twice a year. He and members of his group spend time with Rakhil (and her husband Isaac before his death 2 years ago), a contact that brightened their lives. It was also a way to send money to Rakhil in Penza dirrectly to avoid fees by banks in Houston, New York, and Penza.

It’s wonderful what the letter from Penza has done. Harry and Sandra have become our friends; We value their warmth and good company.

Harry and Sandra, you have our most profound thanks. Harry, you are a mensch.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

My Cancer of the Larynx

In the fall of 1981 I was diagnosed with cancer of the larynx.  The surgery wouldn't follow until July 13th, 1983. 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Letter from Josh on my 95th Birthday

On my 95th birthday last December I received a wonderful package (prepared by Emily) of more than 95 cards, pictures, notes, and memorabilia.  On of many treasures was this letter from my grandson Josh.

As some may know, I (Joshua Daniel Jackson) was adopted into this family; rather than being brought into a family through more ... traditional means.  And when I was younger, I spent a good deal of time trying to understand what that really meant. I realize now that much of what I was trying to understand during that time in my life was: What does it mean to be a part of a family? What does it mean to be a part of this family?
This question stayed with me, in ways that not even I understood, for years. And the more time I spent in Houston. The more time I spent as a child and as a teen with my grandparents especially. The more the answers came. Not all at once by any means; but instead, they came in bits and pieces. I remember hearing stories of an Internist who pushed for changes within the institutions he worked for; because he could no longer stand by and watch his hospital sell cigarettes in the lobby to patients, who would then come upstairs to him with emphysema and lung cancer. A man who would make house calls when it was no longer in fashion.
I slowly began to comprehend what it meant for an Intellectual to leave his home, travel to a new country, and start a life over from scratch. Selling shoes in a company town. I learned why it was important to give back to your community and to those less fortunate within it; no matter how much wealth you had, no matter how much of it you had built on your own. I learned the value of listening instead of talking, of preparing instead of reacting, and of making sure that I do things correctly the first time. No matter how trivial the task was. I learned from my grandfather the importance of treating relationships, not like the means to an end. But like the end itself.
As I grew older, I began to notice that some of the values that I had grown into over the years were not quite as common as I would wish them to be. But in my travels to Le Madeline, for coffee, croissants and quiet conversation I found that even if my grandfather and I took differing routes to come to a conclusion. We often came to one that I found more agreeable than any I could find with (more than) most of my peers. Even with a multigenerational gap between us. I found that my grandfather was more progressive in his thinking than those who had inherited the world from his generation; In fact, even more than their children.
Grandpa, you have been called a renaissance-man while being celebrated on occasions such as this one. But you aren't a renaissance-man. You're not just a renaissance-man anyway. You're more than that. You, Dan Jackson, are timeless. At times, you make the most liberal teens I've met look like anachronistic relics. At others, you make the most conservative traditionalists I've met look like children, ignorant to the values of their families and of their people. You've shown me why it is good to be a quiet thoughtful man. And why it is better to love a strong outspoken woman. The courage, strength and compassion that you and grandma have displayed, -even in the small portion of your lives that I have had the pleasure of taking part in- continues to astound and inspire those around you. And I feel as though that may never change. The imprint that you have left on the world, and on your children, grandchildren, even greatgrandchildren is strong and it will likely outlast all of us. I hope the same of you. I love you Grandpa. And I hope you have a Happy Birthday. I am trying to find my way to Houston. I don't expect to make it before the New Year. But I hope to see you shortly thereafter.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

If I Had Been a Man of Violence

I shared this video with Lucy who jogged my memory about the pursuit by Naomi. Sometime in the 60s when I was in practice in Medical Towers, I was called to the phone for a long distance call. It was Naomi. I don't remember anything about the conversation except that I cut it short. At dinner that night I told Gma and the boys about the call. She was amused and curious. "Why didn't you invite her for dinner?" The boys chimed in, especially when they found out I had described her to Gma as very pretty. It seems I missed a great opportunity for an unforgettable meal by not inviting her.

Steve, my son, emailed me this later: "I've been thinking about your v-log entry as requested. Your anger at Naomi is still palpable after all these years. There's no question that it would have been a difficult, if not impossible marriage. She was flighty and rebellious (against her family and, eventually, against you) and this would have made your life miserable. You would have to do all the work to keep things together and, in the end, it would have been for nought (she would have left you). Mom was difficult but steadfast and you needed that. Thus, your attraction to "persevering and persistence." I think, in spite of your anger, you did the right thing. Although I probably would have had sex with her before I said "adios"."

Friday, January 11, 2013

A Visit to a Medical Giant

Bob Chamovitz is my cousin: his mother and mine were sisters. We lived as block away from each other in Aliquippa and grew up together. He is now a retired gastroenterologist. The visit he describes took place around 1978.

Dear Dan,
I went to New York to see Burill Crohn. I called Mt Sinai Hospital and asked for him. "Which Doctor Cohen, the operator asked...never heard of Dr Crohn."

Finally I got a phone number and spoke to his wife who invited me to their apartment near the Museum of Modern Art. I walked in to see a grand piano and there he was, all 94 years of him
seated in a big chair, his edematous legs on a hassock.

He asked about me, why was I there, etc. (His wife said to be brief but he was enjoying himself).  I asked if he was still practicing medicine.

"No," he said. "In NY you can't get a licence after age 93!!", so he gave up consulting a year earlier. He volunteered that no one knows who he is anymore.  He tried to get his grandson into med school but the "bastards" paid him no mind. He told me the story of how IBD (inflammatory bowel disease)became Crohn's Disease. It was at a conference in Australia (?); discussion was on IBD and all its variants and the question was, what to call this bizarre illness and someone shouted, let's call it Crohn's disease. The moderator said, "Let's take a vote All in favor say aye," and it carried by unanimous vote. That was it.

He told me what he wanted on his tombstone:  the prescription that he prescribed, an elixir of codeine 1/4 gr plus small amount of barbital. "So what if they got addicted!"

Was a thrill for me to have been in his presence on a one-to-one setting.

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Indian Pueblo Dancing video

Check out the 1958 video we just put up on YouTube:

Elmer Eger and the Floating Garage

Dan Jackson says, “After Hurricane Katrina in 2005 I spoke to Elmer about the 1936 flood that his family experienced. This piece is his response.”

The Floating Garage – a 2005 letter from Elmer Eger to Dan Jackson

St. Patrick's day was yesterday and it reminded me of the great 1936 St. Patrick's Day flood. We were living in a new home during the middle of the great depression. (Everything in my generation seems to have been great: the great war, the great depression, etc.). Our home was located on Neville Island, a strip of land about 10 miles southwest of Pittsburgh. The "Island" seven miles long and one half mile wide at its widest point and was a mixture of farming and industry. At one time it was and was purported to be richest township in the USA because of the taxes paid by more than 50 major industries, including Gulf Oil, Dravo Corporation, Pittsburgh Des Moines Steel, and on and on.

We were living in a new home only because it was practically given to my father ($25.00 per month with every payment going toward purchase) by his good friend and business neighbor Ernest Harper, who had built the house for speculation before the depression took hold. The house did have a deficit. There were not enough electric receptacles in the living room and in order to enjoy the radio and enough lamps, my father ingeniously drilled through the floor and plugged the radio into a receptacle in the basement. As you will see that was a fateful act that later was almost disasterous.

Dad passed away suddenly in July of 1935 and my Uncle Sam and Aunt Sarah Sharp came to live with us. One reason was to share the expenses and the other was for Aunt Sarah to keep house while my Mother went to business. Mother and Dad had just started a jewelry shop a year earlier and my mom to her everlasting credit was determined to keep it going. She struggled mightily, educated two children and lived to see her efforts blossom into a thriving business many years later.

The winter of 35-36 was severe, with snow and ice piled everywhere especially in the upland watershed of north western Pennsylvania. In March a sudden thaw released untold amounts of water and ice floes into the Allegheny and Monongahela rivers which joined to form the Ohio River at the famous Golden Triangle of the city of Pittsburgh. It was the first year in many years that the three rivers has frozen solid and if it were not for the heavy paddlewheel and barge traffic which forged a channel in the ice one could have easily walked from shore to shore.

With the spring thaw the river flowed with huge chunks of ice. As the river rose our cellar began to flood. We carefully unplugged all of the electrical appliances in the basement including dad's radio connection. So having no communication with the outside world and trusting that a flooded basement would be the only eventuality, we all went to bed.

At three AM that morning my Aunt roused us and told us to dress quickly because the water was up to top step on the front porch and would soon be in seeping into the first floor of the house. My uncle's 1931 model A ford was in the garage and by now the water was over the running board and possibly into the motor. Anyway there was no way to drive it out in over 2 feet of water. Somehow my mother, sister, aunt and uncle and I waded through small ice flows about 500 yards to the main road which was fortunately built on a hog back and was several feet higher than Yale Avenue the little street where our house stood surrounded by icy water. There on the main spine of Neville Island, we were met by a taxi which had come across the bridge and braved the road which was threatened from both sides by the rising rivers. Thanks to that brave cabby we crossed safely to the mainland of Coraopolis and were deposited at the Jewelry shop which was dry and warm and a safe haven at least for the time being. At dawn we learned that the water was still rising and several homes in the lower end town were already flooded. It was an awesome sight to a young teen because there were boats on some of the streets. As people gathered on the Main street the wisdom was that the water would never reach 4th Avenue one of the two main arteries through the town and the water reaching 5th Ave a block up the hill was not even a possibility. But it did. It reached fifth Avenue, which meant that it put 4 feet of into the the Jewelry store which had becoume our temporary haven. Miraculusly the water stopped short of the shelves on which we had piled the store merchandise. Fortunately at nine that morning I had taken a couple of cartons of rings and watches and valuable jewelry to the Bank Vault of the National Bank which was spared from by the rising waters.

After a short period of bemoaning our fate and being taken in by kind neighbors and wonderful relatives in Aliquippa, everyone waited for the flood to recede, which it did much more quickly than it came.

As can be expected the flood reeked havoc doing millions of dollars worth of damage and leaving in its wake mud and oil and every mess that one can imagine to be cleaned. But cleaned it was and there were and are a million stories in its wake. One family would have been content to clean out the mud and debris but an oil drum had cracked open on a telephone pole spilling the oil and when the water went down their walls and floors were coated with oil. How that house was restored I will never know. I myself, started the coal furnace with our dining room table--that same table that I had been scolded for using as a ping-pong table not too many months earlier.

Remember Uncle Sam's Ford? It was housed in a wooden garage which had a wooden floor. The floodwaters picked up the garage with the Ford still in it and floated it for ½ mile where it miraculously came to rest against an oil derrick, the last obstacle on the island's tip. There it was lowered gently to the ground right side up as the water receded. Eventually the car was towed to a garage where Uncle Sam expected to junk it. And what was he to do? No one carried flood insurance and he certainly couldn't afford a new car. A mechanic suggested that they blowout the gas lines and refill the tank. Nothing to lose. Lo an behold the car after a couple of coughs started right up and ran nicely for a couple years to come. Try that with one of our computerized engines in today's automobiles.

As I edit this we are six weeks past Hurricane Katrina which wiped out New Orleans and much of the Gulf Coast. As I watch the tragedies of hurricanes, floods, fires and sunamis, and as I watch families being wiped out I know from personal experience that the chances are good that the victims will remake a good life for themselves. I think the human spirit is as resilient as Uncle Sam's Ford. Blowout the gas lines and give it another whirl.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Letter to Arlen Specter

In 1992 I got a flyer from Arlen Specter, aimed at Jews, describing what a wonderful Jew he was and why I should support him. Sandy saved the flyer and my heated response that he was a bastard.

The flyer he sent out was his plea for his reelection. Why did he send one to me in Texas? Beats me.

Here's the letter he sent me:
Spector letter 1992

And here's my response:
Spector letter response

Dear Sen Specter -
There is something terribly wrong when the "son of Jewish Russian immigrants" forgets that his background demands that he act like a "mensh", that he not forget what it's like to be in the minority, that he defend and search for the truth.
Your performance in the hearings of Hill-Thomas was disgraceful. You were persecutory, unkind, biased, hostile, unfair, and strident. You were a black mark for men, senators, the legal profession and other "defenders of minorities" (read "son of Jewish Russian immigrants").
And you want to be re-elected?

Daniel Jackson MD

Sunday, January 15, 2012

It’s the Culture, Grampa

Bryan and I were at our weekly breakfast at La Madelaine in the Galleria. As usual, he had quiche and coffee and I had toast and coffee. When we finished our second cups, I asked if there was anything he wanted to buy. He said there was a card shop on the second floor of Galleria 2 where he wanted to look for something; just the place for a sixteen year-old.

While he shopped, I watched the cashier. She was a teen-ager, thin, dressed in a dark blouse and pants. She was not attractive, a state made worse by uncombed hair and her failure to smile. And her tattoos, around her neck and her wrists, shocked me. They were green and irregular, looking like colored barbed wire. What in the world had she done to herself?

As we walked out the door, I asked Bryan if he had noticed the tattoos. He said he had. I asked how he felt about them. He shrugged his shoulders. I told him I thought they were ugly and predicted that when she grew up to be a young lady, she would be sorry that she had disfigured her body and would not be able to reverse the damage except at great cost and pain.

Demonstrating wisdom beyond his years, he set me straight, “It’s the culture, Grampa.” He was telling me that my view of tattooing lagged far behind the changes that were going on around me. This had nothing to do with Maori natives and the natives of Papua New Guinea and professional wrestlers and basketball and football players with colorful decorations on their bodies. This was a teenager who looked upon tattooing as part of her makeup like lipstick or a piece of jewelry or hairdo except that it was permanent.

I began to be more aware of body art---a leaf on the ankle, a butterfly on the shoulder, an arrow on the small of the back, a heart on the side of the neck. I viewed them as cute, still limited to the young and daring. But would members of the upper crust, the wealthy, the powerful do this to their bodies? The answer came in a profile in the October 21, 2011 issue of The New Yorker of Jill Abramson, the newly appointed editor of The New York Times. She confessed that at one time when she had been transferred from her beloved New York to California to a new position, she had a tattoo of a subway token, “good for one trip” inked on her body. She won’t tell where it is; no matter, tattooing has arrived and is definitely part of our culture.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Coming to America

Peepa (Harry Jackson)

Dad was an incurable romantic. He loved to tell Evy and me stories of his childhood in Kurenetz, Russia, of his attempts to leave home to come to America, and of his early experiences in his adopted land. Those stories are part of our childhood as well as part of Dad’s being a father and a historian and a story teller. Some of his tales differed between what he told us and what he said later in his oral history. Both version are delightful and worth recounting.

Listen to what he told us about the Gypsy with whom he became friendly on the Prince Oskar, the ship that brought Dad to America. The Gypsy’s family was unaccustomed to sailing and much of the time was plagued with sea-sickness. Their worst trauma was the lingering illness and death of their youngest child. Dad was pained by their loss and did his best to comfort them especially because none of the other passengers in steerage gave any attention to them in their grief.

When the Prince Oskar docked at Philadelphia, Dad was told he could not land unless he had $25 in his possession. It was presumably to prevent his becoming dependent on the social services of his new country. It was actually a ploy of the anti-immigrant feeling brought on by the influx of immigrants from Eastern Europe. Dad told the authorities he was penniless; where could he get $25? The immigration officer warned him that if he didn’t have the money, he would be put on the next ship returning to Hamburg, the port that he had come from. Dad was frantic; how could he, a poor man in a new country, get $25? It was his good friend, the Gypsy, who stepped in and gave him the $25. Dad was overjoyed; he assured his savior he would get the money back to him somehow.

The story did not end there. One morning many years later, when Dad was sweeping the sidewalk in front of the shoe store, he looked up and there, on Franklin Avenue, was the Gypsy and his family traveling along by horse and wagon. Dad hailed them and they talked for a while. I can’t remember for certain, but my guess is that Dad paid him back the $25. It would certainly round out a remarkable tale.

But there is a different version of the $25 in Dad’s oral history. Yes, the authorities did demand that he have $25 on his person before they would allow him to land, but there the story takes a different turn. When he did not have the money, he and several others in similar straits were taken by a small boat to an island in Philadelphia harbor, there to wait until they could produce the money. If not, they would be returned across the Atlantic. As Dad glumly pondered his ill-fate, “a man with a jacket with brass buttons” spoke to him in Yiddish! “Why are you so unhappy,” he asked. Dad explained the money problem. The man gave him the money and told him not to worry. He explained that he was from HIAS—Hebrew Immigrant Aid Society—and he was there to help. Dad had heard about HIAS back in Russia and now knew that his arrival in America was secure.

It wasn’t the Gypsy who had come to his rescue. He was real and kind and friendly but did he rescue Dad in his moment of financial need? Or was it HIAS which was part of the welcoming agencies to help and protect immigrants.

There is another story that we heard Dad tell over and over. When I say that I remember hearing his stories, I am also aware that I could tell when he was about to tell one I had heard before but I never wanted him to stop. I remembered the stories, having heard them so many times but I wanted to hear them again.

The story of the change of Dad’s name from the Russian to the American form was one we heard so often that it seemed like a fairy tale with a highly pleasing ending. When the immigration officer asked Dad his name, he told him “Hillel Yachnovich”. According to Dad, the officer said it wasn’t American enough. Dad then said, “My brother’s name is Louis Jackson.” That caught the officer’s fancy who announced that Dad’s new name was now Harry Jackson.

I have been told, on good authority, that at one time it was legal (and common) for immigration officers to change an immigrant’s name if the officer thought it too hard to understand or pronounce or if it was not “American” enough. It could even be changed if the immigrant so requested. Dad told Evy and me that story so many times; we were fascinated that Dad’s quick thinking had given him his new name and paved his way past the port’s authorities.

Dad’s oral history has a different version which certainly makes more sense. Dad retained his name through the immigration process. When he was permitted to, he went to Munhall, a steel mill town near Pittsburgh to find his brother Louis who was the first Jackson brother to come to America. There, Dad joined other immigrants, men and women who were determined to become American as soon as possible. They formed social groups to learn to speak better English by reading poetry and prose, by putting on plays, by debating, and singing, solo or in groups. On attending his social group one evening, Dad learned that without consulting him the group had decided that he should change his name from Hillel Yachnovich to Harry Jackson. He was crushed that he had lost “Hillel” the name of a famous rabbi and scholar, and “Yachnovich”, the name of his father, whom he venerated and respected. He was heartsick but kept his feelings to himself and gradually accepted the change to his American name. So, if it is true that his social group changed his name for him, then the story about it being changed by an immigration officer, as he told us over and over, was just more evidence of his love of spinning a lively tale with a happy ending.

In his reflections about the new name that had unceremoniously been attached to him by his fellow-immigrants, he confessed that he had submitted to their action without open objection because long since arriving in America, he had been thinking that “Yachnovich” sounded too Russian for someone who wanted to be Americanized as quickly as possible. He knew he needed to make a change. As he turned the matter over and over in his mind, he could not find a sound in English to match the sound of the Russian “ch”; he had thought of “Yachnin” which his friends had trouble pronouncing. He discarded “Yanin” as sounding weak. He scolded himself for being unable to make a choice in the matter, finally gave in to his social group’s summary decision, and adjusted to being “Harry Jackson” for the rest of his life.